I remember a night, I was so frustrated with myself; spiritually tired, spiritually drained, and deeply affected by my insecurities. As soon as I was done crying, something led me to open up the bible and the first thing I had opened to was Psalm 139. I read it out loud, with a strange feeling that all I needed to know, and the ‘something’ I was eager to hear was found in those words. It felt like I had someone reading it back to me, and by the end, I noticed that everything I had allowed to steal my joy was silenced in God’s complete knowledge and care of me.
It is the comfort, and peace that I had felt after reading Psalm 139, which motivated me to share. Moments of confusion, or feeling unsettled is not of God. Feeling insecure, and unworthy is not of God. Feeling worried, anxious or afraid is not of God. I learnt/learning that when I focus my attention to God – e.g., in prayer, in thought, and in acts of faith – I will find that God is right where I needed Him to be, always in my moment. I also learnt, that the devil comes to steal what I have – What do you have? If it’s a joyful spirit that you have and all of sudden you haven’t got it… then think about what is happening in your life (situations, people, bad habits) that could be stealing that away from you.
May we find it in our tired spirits, or busy thoughts to stop trying to solve our own problems, and let it go. May You help us to find ways of letting go, and resting in the promise of Your Word.
May we always remember that You know us better than we know ourselves. May we find contentment and comfort in believing that we are precious to You, we are better than our challenges, and capable of moving forward.
Thinking of God as a Head Commander instead of my loving, Father was exhausting. This image of God sitting above the earth and stars watching from the Heavens drew out a false distance between Him and I. In the moments when I could no longer keep looking up, I was tempted to let go of Gods hand because it felt too far away for my grasp. Thinking as Jobs friend Eliphaz did in Job 22: 12-14 – wondering whether God was actually listening because He was infinitely exhalted… Too far beyond me.
Quite often, God is depicted as a Mountain, a peak to high to reach. In a good head space, in fitting conditions it’s easy to climb that mountain to Him and make it to the peak without being challenged beyond our ability. But when adversity, too hard to understand, or ‘outside our level of function’ is put in place, that peak we envision God being at becomes too hard to reach, almost impossible. It gets to the point where in our exhausted minds, the verses in the bible depict God as the Head commander standing from the top; Screaming out proverbs 3:5-6, Jeremiah 29: 1, Romans 12: 12, Matthews 11 ….. And like a difficult gym session, our bodies and spirits give in… And we settle for “whatever”.
I remember a time when I got into a argument with my mum. It was over a reoccurring problem; I’ve come before God over this particular situation more than once, so when we started fighting about it again it had got to a point where I couldn’t look up anymore. Thinking things like “Lord, where are you!? It’s getting too hard to stay focussed on You…. It’s too hard to continue doing what you need me to do.” – I exhausted myself out, until I realised and thought: ‘wait, holdon…. Why was I making God the mountain too hard to climb and not the challenge itself? God wasn’t the Head commander demanding from the top, nor was He sitting at the highest peak waiting for me to ‘eventually get there’. He was Isaiah 14: 12- 15 : the King of Babylon, who is exhalted far beyond the stars, but came down anyway to meet with us…… The King of kings who came from the Heavens to walk this journey for me. To suffer the worst of it on my behalf. To endure for me. To lead and guide, and get me over the mountain; over any mountain (relationships, insecurities, health, finances, stress, exhaustion) because He had done so Himself. He was Jesus.
The reality is, God had already walked the earth I did, not as a Head Commander, but as My Father. In those moments when I felt He was too far from my reach, I was too overwhelmed to notice that, there was Jesus, the mediator, already carrying the load I tried to carry myself.
There are times when yes, it is quite easy to think of God too far away from your present trials, and tribulation. In this post I want to encourage you to think of God as Your friend: closest to You when youre going through struggles. I want you to see God as Your Father; quick to forgive and So full of Love. Look to Him as Your main source of provision; it might not seem like God can provide “such and such” for whatever You’re going through, but He never fails. Has God ever disappointed You!?
Be it what you may, but always remember that God’s just as much Ours as He is the God of All Creation . Don’t struggle alone, don’t fight it alone ….cry as much as it takes until You’re ready to grab Him by the hand. It will take a prayer of maybe a couple words…. But do it! Faith as small as a mustard seed moves mountains!
Stay blessed, and enjoy the beginning of the end to what I would say has been a very awesome, tiring lol, but blessed 2015!
Found this and knew exactly what the person who wrote it meant. To fall in love with Jesus everyday is one thing… But to make someone else fall in love with Jesus everyday is something we can all press towards. I don’t think there is ever enough of Jesus, lol that kinda amazes me… Im almost 23 and it’s sorta cool to me that there is still so many more new reasons to fall in love over and over again with Jesus 🙏🏼🙌
-“In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us.” (1 John 4:10)
I could be so far gone in my own life sometimes, or have moments when I’m going in the opposite direction to God, and yet, He still chases me. An amazing reality of God’s love is finding that even when our hearts are unwilling, God still desires us – everything of who we are. The unconditional grace.
I was reading the book of Jonah from the bible a few days ago and it wasn’t until then that I realized how amazing His story was. God had instructed Jonah to go to Nineveh, and preach judgement to the Assyrians. Instead of obeying God, Jonah decided to run and hide from Him. In doing so, Jonah ended up being swallowed by a whale, and remained there for three days. During those three days, Jonah prayed
1 From inside the fish Jonah prayed to the Lord his God. 2 He said:
“In my distress I called to the Lord,
and he answered me.
From deep in the realm of the dead I called for help,
and you listened to my cry…..[cont.]
then God commanded the fish to vomit Jonah out. Following this, Jonah decided that He was going to do what God had asked of him and went to Nineveh to preach to the people. His preaching caused the people of Nineveh to repent. This pleased God, but Jonah was upset. He couldn’t understand God’s mercy on a people who were once against Him.
Putting this into perspective, I realized that we tend to be runners like Jonah. Its important to note that the people of Nineveh were rebels against God, it’s possible that Jonah was afraid of travelling there to preach to a town against his beliefs. Jonah may have felt inadequate, afraid of what will result of him accepting God’s commission. – Fear desires us to turn away because we’ve already made up our minds about the outcome. The idea of doing something that seems unlikely or out of our reach is scary; stepping out of our comfort zones is scary, being totally honest is scary, speaking out is scary… But if God gives you that opportunity, will you run?
God isolated Jonah for three days, and in that time, Jonah prayed but in thanksgiving. There is something powerful about being alone with God. At times, that’s what God needs to do to make us realize our potential through Him. Jesus had suffered on the cross, on the third day He resurrected! Jonah was in the whale for three days, and when He was vomitted out, His heart changed and he carried out Gods will. – If you have to be isolated, suffer or be stripped to be alone with God, don’t be afraid! God does drastic things to get our attention sometimes, but what is the benefit of that? – For Jonah, it was obedience to preach and make a city of rebels repent.
At the end, Jonah ended up being upset at God’s compassion for the city. To me, Jonah’s reaction is natural for humans. Often, we don’t understand God’s ways, but that only shows how small our hearts are to His ever-expansive love for us.
How beautiful is it that a whole town ended up repenting as a result of the obedience of one man; who initially ran from God? I loooove the pic at the top and the words: ‘I choose you.” To choose someone, is to pick that person specifically, to desire them. – God chooses YOU. You could be running a million miles away from God, but even then… He chosen to love you still. So here’s the thing… God will always choose You, there’s no question about it. But are you willing to choose Him?
Enjoy the weekend, God Bless!
When I think of God’s peace the best way I can define it is in the way I feel when it’s just me and Him. Peace to me is being in that moment of ‘knowingness’; knowing that after all is done I’ll still have Jesus, He’ll still be there reassuring me that I can leave it all at the foot of His cross. Peace is beautiful. It’s almost indescribable when I think of the moments when it’s just me and Jesus in our back and forth conversations at 2 in the morning lol. Sometimes, peace is the moment when I can no longer take life too seriously; like when I’m too caught up in ‘the journey’ instead of just enjoying God in the moment.
Peace is so important to understand. I learnt that when I came across the article I read called ‘The gift of Peace’. I so recommend the read! Even if you know what it all means, read the article as encouragement. The length of the article is besides the point, but if you aren’t one for long read’s, try and read it a section at a time until you’re finished – I’m actually speaking to myself in this one as well lol, because skim reading is one of my worst habits hehe
Here’s the link to the article : The Gift of Peace – enjoy it!