God > me. #lent2016

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I was watching a sermon earlier, and Bishop T.D. Jakes shared that moments of turmoil aren’t defined by what the situation is, but more so how we feel during those situations.  Everyone has accidentally tripped up in public, but not everyone will feel incredibly embarrassed about it.  Everyone has faced deep hurt, but not everyone will respond to it the same because emotionally, everyone will be different.  Moments of turmoil, and challenges are a reality of life but you/me have a partial control on the way in which the situation will unfold.   You can either let situations overwhelm you, steal your joy, and reel you into a state of carelessness.  Or, you can hand over your troubles to the One who can go BEFORE you.  – Doing that second part is easily said than done (trust me, I know the difficulty all too well lol), but it can be done when you renew your mind to take God’s perspective and allow THAT to shape the way you live.  God’s perspective is found in the bible, in your prayer, when you call on Him (John 10: 3).

Don’t allow for situations to overcome you, and the way that it can is with a unhealthy mindset.  What’s your mindset towards; studying, parents, finance, marriage, church, physical appearance, YOURSELF, … etc?  Emotions, and mindsets go hand in hand (well, thats what I think anyway).  The way you feel in a situation will give you an indication on what you need to do about it.  In Mark 2: 21-22, Jesus explained that nothing new can be put onto something old.  I took this approach in my own struggles with my mindset towards myself, and my journey… in order for God to move me along, a renewal is needed.  God is not a God who does things unfinished, when He has something else planned, He’ll make sure I too am ready, fully prepared.

Its lent season! Like every year,  I never know what to expect.   I cherish lent as one of the opportunities to prepare myself for the rest of this year, and upcoming seasons.  For lent 2016, I find myself chasing new heights in my own personal growth, more specifically, a needed alter and edification of my mindset.  It’s been a sloppy, unsteady start,  please pray for me!  And likewise, I pray that at whatever stage in you’re journey you are in, you hold tightly to God’s perspective, and most importantly, remember always that you are incredibly loved despite the way you feel, or think!

God loves you, He fights for You, for Your Joy!

God Bless!






Good Morning! 

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Dear Jesus, 

Thank you for a new day! 

Thankful Lord that even when I’m so wrapped up in my own way of living, even when I’ve failed to do my part, You are still so faithful, so merciful! 

In need of you this morning.  Strength for disciplin, and Confidence in Your ways over mine is what I need God.  Guard my heart, and bless those who are also in need of You this day. 

I love you. 


Manukau View, Auckland.

🌺 His joy is new each morning! 

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Flowers are seriously the most beautiful things! As a joke I always tell my friends that one day I’ll have my dream garden flourishing different plants… But as they all know, I can’t comitt to replying to their texts or make time, so imagine me maintaining a garden!? 😂 I wish and still dream of it though… To build my house in front of a Botanical so at least I can enjoy the garden minus the work that goes into it. Hahaha… That’s sounds so terrible, but my point is: flowers have such a beauty about them. Isn’t is interesting how from a single seed you get this stalk, doesn’t look so pretty initially, and then when the time comes you get this beautiful flower!? – I amaze myself thinking about it… The colours, the fragrance… It’s so cool hehe

In the last few days I’ve had repetitive messages about seeds and the harvest. Probably is God trying to tell something, but just quickly I thought I’d share a couple of the messages I got consecutively this week which stood out: 

1. During a famine. Like I was saying before, there’s a period where you don’t see any flowers blossom, and so the plant/tree doesn’t look as pretty, looks a little empty. At times, that’s us in present trials.  We experience certain moments where we feel nothing is going right, or happening, things seem ‘dry’. For me; I feel spiritually tired, because I think Gods gone silent, or I feel I’ve been in a certain season for too long.  If that’s you right now, hang in there!  Like every plant, eventually there’s a blossom… Or like every crop… In the right time, there’s a Harvest! If You decide to give in or give up, you’re causing your plant to wither. 

2. The second message I got about this was to maintain your seeds! How do we maintain our seeds? We first make sure our Soil is right. The most nourishing soil to plant your seeds in is in God: if you’ve surrendered everything to Him in prayer, then you’ve planted your seeds in the best soil.  Your next job is to maintain the growth of your seed by watering it with some gratefulness, trust, forgiveness, kindness, and the bible.  Do that daily, for  joy is new each morning! 

I wasn’t suppose to make this post as long as it is… I’m honestly working on reducing my word count haha… *typical girl 😂. 

Anyway, i thought To share that! God literally just affirmed and confirmed what my season is like… And it’s something along those lines. I won’t lie, it’s a fight to stay focussed; often I wonder if what I’m doing is His Will, or what that actually looks like.   But  what’s been so helpful is finding the grace moments in the day and trusting that it’s God up to something – incognito as they say 😊 

Have a good day today! 

God bless! 🌼

Good morning! 

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My nephews prayer went something like this tonight: 

“Dear God, thank you for the plants that grow and keep the people alive. Thank you for the whole world, it doesn’t matter if it’s bad or cold, thanks!” 

 – Indeed, thank you Jesus for the things as small as the plants, and things as big as our world! Please Jesus, in everything small or big, help us to see You and fight to, to be a little more grateful, a little more joyous and all the more loving of everything around us! 

                    We love you! 


St Heliers, Auckland



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6 days into the new year, I’m hoping it’s been good!  I hope that you’ve brought with you in this year all the lessons, joys, blessings that 2015 offered!

 If i were to title my 2015, I’d call it: ‘my Grace period’ – I mean, everyday is a grace period, but for me… The whole year had been one where God allowed me to focus on the things that affected me the most. I was definitely stretched, challenged, but most importantly, God had stripped me, peeled back my layers in order that I see more confidently that He had Already taken residence in me- it’s been so good, so refreshing! 

I share that because I’m convinced, even more so, that Life is fully satisfied and alive in Jesus! So much of me hopes 2016 is your year of discovering more about God!  Someone reminded me just before the New Year of how important it is to not only be grateful, but to Go to God because that’s all He requires… A willing, maybe shattered, flawed heart, in its entirety! No one is perfect, no one is winning at a race to the finish line…. Jesus died because we are (believer or not) the same to Him: sinful and in need of help.  

One of the things I fear the most is the thought of missing an opportunity, an open door and live in the ‘what-ifs’. It scares me, and yet sometimes I’m the one I usually refer to when I describe a person too afraid to make the first step.  I don’t want to spend too much time weighing everything up, or trying to understand it all only to run right past the open door. – so I’ve made my word for this year ‘Trust’. I’m going to trust by resting in God, and applying the importance of: action, kindness, consistency, humility, redemption and Will – because those were the words I was blessed with on the first day of this year 😁
I tend to target my posts to Christians and forget sometimes that there are people who have no idea what I’m writing about… Who probably don’t have any clue about Jesus or understand what the actual fuss is. .To my non-Christian brother or sister, there is a fuss about Jesus because it is set in stone, and there is evidence that Jesus suffered death for us all not because we have life figured out, but because we’re imperfect. He resurrected in search of us, He returned to revive a dead harvest – that’s you, that’s me. Try something new in 2016! If you don’t know Jesus, get to know Him. If you’re feeling like something is missing, i promise you’ll find it in God!  

Trying new things aren’t the easiest, and I’m fragile enough to admit that haha… I’m not sure what it is that’s on your heart, or whats going through your mind but how about making this year about going after the open doors? If it works out, great! If it doesn’t, then well, all you have is forward (and upwards) to chase but at least you know that you’ve tried it – it’s all about progression.  
 Joy, revival, love and Grace  is yours this year, God Bless! 🙏🏼🌺🍃🌼


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I’m currently reading through the book of exodus and I really wanted to share an experience I had when I finished reading chapter 16 last night.  

Before I read exodus 16, I was a busy-bee in my thoughts and emotions about current circumstances and the journey.  I read chapter 16 and could declare by the end that:

1. God listens to every grumbling or complaint we give Him (Exodus 16:9). The Israelites wanted to return to the place they were saved from because they weren’t satisfied in their journey to the promised land. They were willing to turn back rather than wait faithfully on Gods divine timing.  – I said, ‘ok God, by trying to constantly figure you out, I’m starting to sound like an Israelite… Grumbling as if You don’t already know what you’re doing’. My favourite thing about the verse is that though I complain and grumble at times, He still listens 😄

2. Jesus is the sacrificed Manna, and He is… Enough. Obedience meant that the Israelites needed to trust that God had already given what they needed and until they reached ‘the Destination’ they needed to believe that all He provided was exact.  Those who took more bread than they needed, and those who didn’t rest when God instructed them to, ended up being disappointed. – I was starting to realise how My situation related to chapter 16, amazed at Gods appointed time.  I thought, ‘oh ok God… When I’m trying to figure out what You’re up too, or when I’m getting anxious about what ‘isn’t happening’… What I’m actually doing is taking more than I need.’  God has called me to ‘A Destination’, I will eventually get there… But it’s so important that I be fully satisfied, (full, content) in the journey, in His Manna, for what I have and where I am now. The bread of Life is Jesus, and partaking in Him daily, is as fully satisfied as I can get… Nothing else will quench.

3. The last part of that chapter encouraged me to post this.  The manna was to be remembered as a testimony to when God heard the cry of the Israelites in the desert of sin, and brought them out of Egypt. The Israelites continued to eat of the manna until they reached the borders of their destination (which lasted for 40years).  I was reminded that Jesus didn’t require much of me but that I stay faithful to Him and joyous with all that He is to me.  It’s important to not only share His greatness with others, but to enjoy my journey;  Even if there are more speed bumps than expected… God doesnt want me to arrive to ‘the destination’ (whatever or wherever it is) having missed the beauty, and fun of getting there.
Christmas is around the corner and its the only time for a long time to embrace the Christmas spirit and everything this time embodies. Don’t worry about what’s not happening, if anything I’m woking on just enjoying and making the most of it hehe hope the prep time has been good! 

God bless! 

Jesus, the mediator. 

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Thinking of God as a Head Commander instead of my loving, Father was exhausting. This image of God sitting above the earth and stars watching from the Heavens drew out a false distance between Him and I. In the moments when I could no longer keep looking up, I was tempted to let go of Gods hand because it felt too far away for my grasp. Thinking as Jobs friend Eliphaz did in Job 22: 12-14 – wondering whether God was actually listening because He was infinitely exhalted… Too far beyond me.
Quite often, God is depicted as a Mountain, a peak to high to reach. In a good head space, in fitting conditions  it’s easy to climb that mountain to Him and make it to the peak without being  challenged beyond our ability.   But when adversity, too hard to understand, or ‘outside our level of function’ is put in place,  that peak we envision God being at becomes too hard to reach, almost impossible. It gets to the point where in our exhausted minds, the verses in the bible depict God as the Head commander standing from the top; Screaming out proverbs 3:5-6, Jeremiah 29: 1, Romans 12: 12, Matthews 11 ….. And like a difficult gym session, our bodies and spirits give in… And we settle for “whatever”. 

I remember a time when I got into a argument with my mum.  It was over a reoccurring problem; I’ve come before God over this particular situation more than once, so when we started fighting about it again it had got to a point where I couldn’t look up anymore. Thinking things like “Lord, where are you!? It’s getting too hard to stay focussed on You…. It’s too hard to continue doing what you need me to do.” – I exhausted myself out, until I realised and thought:  ‘wait, holdon…. Why was I making God the mountain too hard to climb and not the challenge itself? God wasn’t the Head commander demanding from the top, nor was He sitting at the highest peak waiting for me to ‘eventually get there’.  He was Isaiah 14: 12- 15 : the King of Babylon, who is exhalted far beyond the stars, but came down anyway to meet with us…… The King of kings who came from the Heavens to walk this journey for me. To suffer the worst of it on my behalf.  To endure for me. To lead and guide, and get me over the mountain; over any mountain (relationships,  insecurities, health, finances, stress, exhaustion) because He had done so Himself. He was Jesus. 

The reality is,  God had already walked the earth I did, not as a Head Commander, but as My Father. In those moments when I felt He was too far from my reach, I was too overwhelmed to notice that, there was Jesus, the mediator, already carrying the load I tried to carry myself. 

There are times when yes, it is quite easy to think of God too far away from your present trials, and tribulation.  In this post I want to encourage you to think of God as Your friend: closest to You when youre going through struggles. I want you to see God as Your Father; quick to forgive and So full of Love. Look to Him as Your main source of provision;  it might not seem like God can provide “such and such” for whatever You’re going through, but He never fails. Has God ever disappointed You!? 

Be it what you may, but always remember that God’s just as much Ours as He is the God of All Creation . Don’t struggle alone, don’t fight it alone ….cry as much as it takes until You’re ready to grab Him by the hand. It will take a prayer of maybe a couple words…. But do it! Faith as small as a mustard seed moves mountains! 

Stay blessed, and enjoy the beginning of the end to what I would say has been a very awesome, tiring lol, but blessed 2015!